Nothing I love more than a live band in a pub :)

Going to Devon today! Very excited. Get to explore Exeter the town we’ll soon live in, but Josh is still a fucking sleep and we haven’t even packed yet, and it’s a bit chilly.

Deffo think I’ll be going on holiday at the start of July just need to ok it with work really. Probably more from me later.

Haven’t posted again for ages which is bad as I’m pretty sure that posting soothes my mental state, well it definitely has some benefit.

Didn’t go up to see Hannah on the weekend, we ended up not even having enough money to get up there let alone anything else. Very bad. We were both very disappointed but I can’t help but fear that it was sort of our last chance to fix and rejuvenate our friendship before we move like 300 miles away so that they probably won’t visit us when we do as it appears but is not the case that we’ve made no effort to visit them when they were only about 40 miles away.

Seriously panicking about getting an A in biology and getting into Exeter- it’s looking increasingly unlikely and/or entirely down to chance. I can only afford to lose about 13 marks. However, the last question is a 25 Mark question, and it can be on absolutely anything in biology not even from this unit which means revising for it will probably stress me and waste more time then it will benefit me. So there you have it, my university places hangs on whether I get lucky and get an essay question on something I actually know. Oh I do love how our society and lives are ran- totally always rewarding who deserves it (!). I say this because at this point no matter how much time and effort I put in I can still so very easily fail.

So how do I deal with this knowledge? My initial reaction was far from positive but I concluded that the only thing I can do is to accept it, not get stressed. I am achieving this more and more since I realised the reality of it. After acceptance comes enjoyment and enthusiasm and these will be my next steps. I will enjoy revising for my last ever exams and then become enthusiastic about trying my very hardest and then being free from exams for at least 6 months. So yea.

The way I see it, and it may not be true for all, confidence that I will do well is more important than the revision itself as I essentially already know the answers, my mind just needs to be clear and confident enough to extract them.

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I had the most lovely day yesterday.

I woke up and relaxed in the morning, went back to school at around 1 to print out some past bio questions, saw owl briefly before her exam, went to Starbucks and got the largest frappachino and sat alone in their beautiful garden for two hours doing some of the above mentioned questions. It was serene.

I got a bit grumpy with Josh in the evening, I was just too hot tired and bothered to make the effort to be nice.

Made up for it this morning though with wake up sex, it was banging.

Got work at one today, wish me lots of tips so we can have a mad weekend in London for hannahs birthday x

Last night I ate a White choc chip cookie and a double choc chip cookie together at the same time.

It tasted like a magnificent dual layered brownie.

:)

ITS SUCH NICE WEATHER TODAY!

I think I shall revise outside

Under 45 minutes. Really proud of this boy thought he’d be a screamer but was quite the opposite to the point where he’s a candidate for a tatt addict.

Little very complicated boy from fall out, just over an hour.

Finish clown. One hour.

Tattoo day today.

I wonder how many clients will actually turn up today though, I’ve had about ten people chop and change their minds about today and it’s getting quite annoying.

I’m hoping to do at least three but they might not happen.

I love the runners.
Kieth gave us free matching tops.
And boy did we embody them last night.

Now I can barely move, I put my back out.

Oh how do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

Browning.

Beautiful.

Mums birthday present, from her favourite poem that I will post next. Took about an hour x

Got a disciplinary at work today for HAVING MY BOYFRIEND AND OR FRIEND COME TO THE PUB AND SPEND MONEY!

Was quite pissed off as one can imagine. Vowed to never drink at the plough ever again. I’m just going to go there, work then fuck off to the runners.

Did get 3 tips today though, woo!

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Work till 7

& mothers birthday.

I wonder what today will be like.

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